DEADBOYPARIS

In about 9 days I'm going to be a mum.
Yes, Adam + I are going to be parents.

Nervous as fuck, but utterly excited at the same time.. my belly is making it difficult to reach my laptop's keyboard so I'm going to leave it at that. I'll post a recent photo of my wonderful man and I though, how about that :3





That's the natural pearl necklace he got me for my 20th. We've been together for 16 months. Not very long I know, but our relantionship is pretty strong nowadays.

I've been through so much since I last updated this journal.
I've been with a man now, Adam, for nearly 7 months. Whom I love more than any designer label or gaming computer. He has a little girl, June. She's a gem, even though she's not biologically mine, she's mine. ♥
I've moved out with my best friend Sally, we live with two other people; Courtney and Tilley.

Queensland is currently going through a "natural disaster", it's flooding like fuck.
Hoping our house doesn't get hit, I've spent so much money on my possessions, kinda don't wanna lose them.

Anyways, back to WoW.

Peace.

SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED.

I was in a semi-serious relantionship. Steven was his name, he was the one to make it official, he was the one to tell me he loved me first. The one to "force" me to rent a house with him. Then the one to kick me out, & then a few weeks later to dump me through text message.

But hey I'm glad it happened, he wasn't right for me. Even though it was terribly painful.


But life is exciting.
Currently stuck in a pickle.
Seeing(fucking) a guy my friends warned me not to go near, purely from his past relantionships.
He cheated on his ex 15 times, haha. Well I shouldn't laugh, that's fucking horrible.
But I just can't resist.

He's so right for me.
I know what I'm doing is stupid.
But I guess I need the excitment.
I don't really mind if I get hurt again.
I don't know why.

I always want the ones that are fucked up.
And always get the disgusting ones.
Like, I found out recently that Steven called my friend Major Tom after the breakup telling him he broke up with me cause he was ready for kids and I wasn't.

What the fuck, first I've heard of it.



Oh well.
I've kinda been getting my slut on since the breakup.
Enjoying every day I possibly can, it's the best.

I'm hoping I'll remember about LJ and keep updating it as much as I can.
That's all I can be fucked typing for tonight. (:

I'm working in the kitchen of Australia's "Heart Hospital", yeah Prince Charles, woo. It sucks but it pay fantastic. Steven and I are still together, 4 months on Friday. I've been 18 for almost a month now haha. And yeah there's so much more to do, FUN things which is the best bit haha.

I'm so broke theses days, all I wanna do is shop. But my mother's taking me to Melbourne next month for a weekend and you know, I need to be able to afford my spending habbit while I'm there.

I took Hollie out to the Valley for her first time Sunday night.
We got into the Valley SO early, went to some pubs with alts in it, I find those pubs more comfortable even though all the men wanted me, haha. Then all of a sudden two lads come up to us and tell us to come upstairs with them cus it's better up there. So we went up stairs like "typical" and yeah the entry fee was fucking $30, fuck off I was paying that -_- but one of the lads spoke to the door guy and got us in for free :S Hells yeah, turns out he was the guitarist of the band that was playing there tonight, that was pretty sick.

Yeah I had one fanboy follow me around all night shouting me drinks which I didn't mind. I was paying for myself and Hollie that night and I still managed to spend less than $50. It was awesome. Uhm, and yeah even got shouted a cab ride home. We had a good night I just wish whomever took photos would somehow email me them heh.

So like, yeah I haven't updated this shit in ages. I'm in love with a boy named Steven, we've been together for a month now, uber achievement for me. I've got a job in a hospital, only casual but hey - it's a fucken government job so go me. Uhm, buying so much shit, I've fucken addicted. It's bollocks, can't stop spending!

Got an iPhone the other day, it's wicked cool.
If you know me personally and don't have my new number lemme know, aiight?
I love texting n__n

.. My thigh was itchy.


Hm, been hanging out with Hollie alot which is madcore.
I miss Sally, and shit.
Life's pretty boring, I turn 18 in two months, hopefully by then I'll start enjoying life abit more.

So keen for tatts.
Yeaaaa boi.

Anyways fuck it.
Blogging is shit when you have nothing to say.

I felt like I was in a video game, chasing after people, for some reason they wanted to destroy Europe and start a new one on another planet. But the thing was, my brother was leader of it all. I chased down people, met loads of gorgeous blokes, who ended up being killed by these "minions" purely because they associated with me. I remember one of them was getting married that night ;_; it was so fucked up. And for some reason, me throwing my Ray-Bans at a guard (that looked like wolverine, with the claws and all) fully made him flinch and fall over and knock himself out. o_o it was fucking wierd. Then I got to one stage, I was in a carpark getting chased by the three FUGLIEST guards, like mutant, fucking Hills Have Eyes ugly mutants. Then two of the pretty boys came to help me, and they didn't see the mutants and then got killed. The bastards tied me up. Then, then my fucking brother walks out, with these mad ass sunnies on, signing some document; so I yelled out his name. And he just like ordered them to "take their turns", I was freaaaaaaked man. But somehow I fucked 'em up? NO IDEA HOW WTF. Then chased after my brother, and I ended up in a spaceship that had like a countdown, after the countdown, EUROPE FUCKING EXPLODED. And we, I dunno, started a new one. eek And then like Crystal was there, being under cover with me, and it was pretty fucked up.

But then I got woken up by a phone call for a job interview tomorrow.

I'm in puppy love.

Krishna took me out to the movies, we got drunk, had fun then I went back to his. He's amazing, the next day he took it off work to spend with me, cooked an amazing breakfast/lunch, it was so perfect. We had tea, spent most of the day in eachother's arms. Then after alot of food and sex and fun times we held my hand walking me to the busstop, and then kissed me goodbye. Ugh, butterflies. I know I shouldn't be negatative, but I'm super pessimistic when it comes to super good things happen to me.

On other news, got asked to do a paid photoshoot in August, it's gunna be rad. Over a hundred photographers and only 10-15 models, and I got picked outta fucking nowhere. I'm really excited.

Okay, this is like what I can remember of it.

I went to a pet shop, bought a dog and a mini cat that looked like a Lion. Went home, got drunk. Went to go see Sam, Mike and Jimbo. For some reason I brought Mozart with me? Jimbo answered, but Mischa, my dog (that I just bought, I named it after Hannibal Lectr's sister) followed me to their house. Party ended up at the house, talked to Sam for ages he told me he missed me something chronic & I told him he didn't. There was all these people there, soon enough Benben, Nathan and Sarah got there :S! blah blah blah, Kenny was there too. Mike told me that Sam wanted to sleep in the same bed as me so then he let Sam and I have the big bed? Sam and I were really keen if you know what I mean. Everything was really slow, like all dreams. Laying in bed with Sam, I woke up. :| and I'm like "balls it's only a dream" but then I turned next to me and he was laying there, asleep. So I was happy it wasn't a dream. Hm, sooner or later I went into Sarah and she was crying, she wouldn't tell me why; I went for a walk, got back and someone's like "Benben's in the wardrobe, I don't think he's okay" I looked in, and he has set himself on fire, he's all burnt and swollen. And then all of a sudden all these adults I know are there like my parents and our neightbours, Wendy and Paul. They were all calm, I tried calling triple zero but it was like some car insurance line? It was totally fucked up, but it makes me miss Sam so much.

I need a drink.

On the better side of things;
Wednesday night was super.
Benben took me to a hotel, Sammy (girl sam) and some Kiwi guy Lance was there, oh and some homeless kids Ben felt sorry for. Then I went to the Bunker all dressed up like some slut twat, which was exciting. I made Ackers come out and get pissed with me. Then I decided to call up an old friend of mine, Krishna. So we like, got really drunk haha, and then once we are all abit locked, one thing led to another with Krishna, and now I actually think.. I fancy him. How fucked up is that? I don't get crushes on people, ugh.

But honestly, he's so sweet.
And funny, and has the most hypnotizing eyes.

And now I sound like a pathetic school girl.



Hm, I'm off.
But seriously, I wish he was in my bed right now.

I'm sick of being alone, I want somebody.

I've realised I want a relantionship, how odd is that coming from the feminist known as Twiggie?! Haha, hey so yeah, been abit lonely but who doesn't get lonely? My hair has been gay and so has my fashion, I need a job terribly. I MUST go shopping, BAH! And my baby Mozart caught his first Gecko today, he's growing up so fast. n__n And life is totally boring now, it's my parent's birthdays next month, so I TOTALLY need a job, I'm sick of feeling bad because I can't buy them anything. Bummer.

Well, that is all.